oh the tears...

So of course I stopped by Stefani's blog this morning and have since bawled my eyes out. I'd like to chalk it up to hormones but I know better. Between her words and the video she shared I can't stop crying (it didn't help that the song playing with the video is one I have somehow associated with Cade's birth and brings tears to my eyes anyway). You MUST watch the video on her post about the father and son, it is so inspiring and touching. You know being pregnant comes with so many worries and fears and one I have always thought about is how lucky we were to have one child that was born without any complications and then here I sit going through it again. I suppose so much of this is on my mind with the upcoming ultrasound and I wonder what will they find and if we will be so lucky again. So many other people have children that have disabilities and why won't that happen to me. Seeing this father and son made me realize in an unreal way that if this child has a disability it will be ok and we will make it and we will show that child love like we would any other baby. I try to remind myself that God only gives us what we can handle and my fear is WHAT exactly does he think that is? I pray for the health and safety of this baby everyday, but I believe I need to pray that God will give me the child that our family needs and we will welcome it with open arms and hearts.